i don't know.

I dont know why im posting this here but I dont know where else to let this out
Latley I've been feeling really horrible about myself. I don't know what to do about anything
I feel like there's no love between me and my boyfriend anymore and I feel like I have no friends left in the world
My family treat me like im second best, to everything

All my mom cares about is her birds and she doesn't care about me anymore, all she ever talks to me about is them or when shes not talking to me, all she asks me to do is help her around the house and really just doesn't care about what I have to say or how I feel. All she cares  about is herself.
And my dad still seems to care, but I know he cares more about himself and my brother, so honestly I feel like such a fuckin outcast here.

Me and my boyfriend have been having so many problems recently I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I want to be single again sometimes. I kinda miss just doing what I want, when I want to and not having to worry about other people.
I don't know what to do.. I'm just feeling really fucking crappy about myself and everything else in my life.
My best friend Courtney doesnt even seem to give a damn about me anymore and I've been friends with her since grade 4.
I doubt anyone is reading this, but if someone is, Im sorry that u read all about my patheticness latley. Although I don't know why anyone would want to read it. so.

Maybe I should just be on my own for a little while

maybe that'll do me some good.
I don't even know what I should do right now.. ugh.

anyways ill end this before I depress myself even more.

adios